Liberation, Softness, and A Good Ol’ Banjo with EbonyJanice

Ep # 69: Liberation, Softness, and A Good Ol’ Banjo
“I'm brilliant because my ancestors were brilliant.”
- EbonyJanice
Welcome to episode 69, Liberation, Softness, and A Good Ol’ Banjo!
This episode invites you to reflect on your own journey toward softness, wholeness, and unapologetic self-expression. Whether you’re an artist, activist, or simply someone looking to heal, EbonyJanice’s insights will leave you feeling inspired and ready to embrace your truth.
✨ Episode Summary
In this robust conversation, I’m joined by the incredible EbonyJanice, author of All Black Girls Are Activists. We dive into the transformative world of Fourth Wave Womanism, where personal wellness and self-care are celebrated as radical acts of resistance and pathways to liberation. EbonyJanice’s work bridges art, activism, and academia, offering fresh perspectives on reclaiming your story and prioritizing your well-being as a Black woman or femme individual.
📝 What We Discuss:
- 🌊 Fourth Wave Womanism: Redefining womanism beyond feminism to center the lived experiences of Black women, emphasizing healing, empowerment, and radical self-acceptance.
- 🎨 Art as Activism: Creativity as a declaration of existence, challenging societal norms, and uplifting Black female narratives.
- 🪶 Honoring Ancestors: The importance of connecting with heritage for spiritual and legal empowerment.
- 🌻 Healing & Liberation: How Black American women are reclaiming their stories and moving toward freedom from historical trauma through art and community.
- 🫶🏾 Community & Collaboration: Building networks that encourage vulnerability, authenticity, and collective growth.
👩🏾🏫 EbonyJanice’s Bio:
EbonyJanice is the founder and CEO of The Free People Project and The Ebony Janice Project. She has authored several books, including All Black Girls Are Activists: A Fourth Wave Womanist Pursuit Of Dreams As Radical Resistance. Her Spiritual Mentorship Program, “Dream Yourself Free,” supports Black Women in healing intergenerational wounds and prioritizing pleasure. Ebony Janice’s talks embody a Hip Hop Womanist perspective.
She is the visionary behind Black Girl Mixtape, a platform uplifting the intellectual authority of Black Women, and the All The Black Girls Are Bestsellers Campaign, which has raised over a million dollars to mass purchase Black femme books with the goal of getting them on The New York Times Best Sellers List. This project has contributed to Black and Indie-owned bookstores and gifted thousands of books nationwide.
Ebony Janice earned her Bachelor’s in Cultural Anthropology and Political Science and a Master of Arts in Social Change with a concentration in Spiritual Leadership, Womanist Theology, and Racial Justice.
Chapters:
- 00:07 - Introduction to Ebony Janese: Activist and Artist
- 06:11 - The Emergence of Fourth Wave Womanism
- 13:47 - The Journey of Self-Discovery
- 29:58 - The Role of Ancestry in Faith
- 41:02 - Waking Up with Intention
- 49:54 - The Power of Softness and Being Seated
- 59:24 - The Influence of Housewife Culture
📚 A Few of the Folks EbonyJanice knows IYKYK
- Alice Walker
- Sonya Renee Taylor
- James Cone
- Patrisse Cullors
- Toni Morrison
- Audre Lorde
- June Jordan
- Phyllis Wheatley
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🎉 Check out Ebony Janice Book!
- 📖 All Black Girls Are Activists by Ebony Janice (affiliate link)
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- Website: ebonyjanice.com
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🎥 Episode Credits:
Produced, Hosted, and Edited by Stephanie (teaching myself audio editing!)
Lyrics: Queen Lex
Instrumental: Freddie Bam Fam
00:00 - None
00:07 - Introduction to Ebony Janese: Activist and Artist
06:11 - The Emergence of Fourth Wave Womanism
13:47 - The Journey of Self-Discovery
29:58 - The Role of Ancestry in Faith
41:02 - Waking Up with Intention
49:54 - The Power of Softness and Being Seated
59:24 - The Influence of Housewife Culture
Hey, friends.
Speaker AWelcome and welcome back to Nosy af where we have conversations about art, activism and social change.
Speaker AI'm your host and friend, Stephanie Graham, and I so much admire today's guest on the show, Ebony Janese.
Speaker AEbony Janese is a superstar lady whose work blends activism, art, comedy, academia, and she does it with pure unapologetic brilliance.
Speaker AEbony Janiece has authored several books, but the one framing today's conversation is All Black Girls are activists.
Speaker AA Fourth Wave womanist pursuit of dreams as radical resistance.
Speaker AEbony Janiece is smooth as F.
Speaker AShe is a womanist theologian, an educator, writer and performer whose work is all about liberation, wholeness, and finding softness in a world that wants you talking to you, hardened.
Speaker AAnd to that I say, absolutely not.
Speaker AHardened me.
Speaker AHardened you?
Speaker ANah, that's not gonna fly.
Speaker ASo from developing fourth wave womanism to creating art that explores Black American women's journey toward healing and flight, Ebony Janese is here to drop wisdom, challenge norms, and most importantly, make us feel seen and heard.
Speaker AAnd to that, I he double hockey sticks.
Speaker AYes.
Speaker AAm I right?
Speaker AI'm so happy.
Speaker AEbony Janiece is here today.
Speaker ABut first theme song.
Speaker AGotta get up, get up Tell the whole world you a winner Winner.
Speaker BVision of a car with a missing.
Speaker AIn the car what you doing?
Speaker AHow you doing?
Speaker AWhat you doing and who you are?
Speaker AFlex yourself and press yourself Check yourself, don't wreck yourself if you know me.
Speaker BThen you know that I be knowing what's up.
Speaker AHey, Stephanie Graham is nosy as Ebony Janiece.
Speaker AThank you so much and welcome to Nosy af.
Speaker BThank you for having me.
Speaker AYes.
Speaker AI'm so thrilled.
Speaker AI was thinking that for my audience who are majority of, like, artists and culture makers, if we could just sort of go together to define the principles of fourth wave womanism.
Speaker BYes, yes, yes, yes.
Speaker BSo womanism is a socio, political, spiritual, religious tool.
Speaker BThat or the way that I've defined it, that is used for justice making, that is used for wholeness making.
Speaker BAnd the term originally was coined by Alice Walker in her book In Search of Our Mother's Gardens.
Speaker BAnd it's really, it's written in prose.
Speaker BSo it's this four part definition where she starts talking about how a womanist is, you know, loves the moon, loves softness, loves.
Speaker BShe doesn't say softness.
Speaker BThat's just me throwing that in there.
Speaker BBut loves the moon, loves roundness, loves dance, loves spirit.
Speaker BThere's another part of the definition where she says, a daughter says to her mother, mama, I'm going to Canada and I'm taking you.
Speaker BAnd several Other slaves with me.
Speaker BAnother part of the definition she says womanist is like womanish, which is similar to being too grown, knowing too much.
Speaker BAnd so she's really fleshing this out in this kind of poetic way.
Speaker BBut she gets to the last part of the definition and she says womanism is to feminism as purple is to lavender.
Speaker BAnd so the way that I interpret that is that that is Alice Walker's way of saying that womanism is black women's feminist work, but it's a deeper shade of purple.
Speaker BIt's the deeper feminist work.
Speaker BAnd because from what we know about her work and that she fleshed out both in the definition and onward is that Alice Walker is suggesting that black women's feminist work is not just what we knew at that time, you know, as feminist work.
Speaker BJust, it's not just about gender equal equality.
Speaker BIt's really about wholeness.
Speaker BYou know, it's really about our roundness, it's really about our fullness as human beings.
Speaker BAnd so when I came to womanism, I came actually through womanist theology because these black women theologians who are doing a lot of work, learning with Dr.
Speaker BJames cone, who is considered the father of black liberation theology.
Speaker BAnd so what this, the whole entire idea was saying that this sacred text that we know of as the Bible can't be the whole story because blackness hasn't been fleshed out.
Speaker BAnd what black liberation theologians were knowing is that God couldn't have forgotten us, right?
Speaker BGod couldn't have forgotten black people were Black women theologians were seeing themselves certainly in black liberation theology, but were offering at the same time there's something else missing, and it is our unique identity as black women who, who, you know, that there's something that needs to be spoken to for our black womanists and that the naming woman or womanist really spoke to that a little bit more.
Speaker BThe definition of womanism really spoke to that a little bit more.
Speaker BAnd so they coined this term womanist theology.
Speaker BAnd so that's how I came to womanism.
Speaker BThat's how I came to womanist theology from this theological perspective or from the spiritual religious perspective.
Speaker BAnd so as I began to learn more about womanism and really find myself as, or already identifying as a woman, it's just without that naming, knowing that there was something very unique, both from my freedom making or my justice seeking self, and also from this spiritual religious being or this theologian, this person who is deeply invested in spirit and knowing more about God and understanding more about the divine and my relationship with the divine, that there has to be some Unique language or some unique conversation that is had for me, and that centers me.
Speaker BAnd so that's where I came into womanism, but along the way of learning and being, you know, really identifying as a womanist and a womanist theologian, I realized that we were in another wave of womanism.
Speaker BAnd this particular wave of womanism was thinking about spirit making, spiritual work, thinking about justice making, thinking about identity making from this full perspective and knowing that literally wellness couldn't be supplemental to the work, but that wellness, that our wholeness, that our, you know, our softness, our pursuing our whole selves, was literally the radical work.
Speaker BThe most radical work that we could ever do was to really return to ourselves.
Speaker BAnd I identified it as another wave because I realized that there were a lot of other black women and femme folk who were doing similar work, who were not just saying, we're preaching from the pulpit or we're doing this activism work, and this is a supplemental tool that we're using, but that we're literally saying no.
Speaker BActually, the work that we're supposed to be doing is taking care of ourselves, is seeking ourselves, is pursuing ourselves.
Speaker BAnd the reality is, historically, black women haven't had the privilege of centering ourselves in that way.
Speaker BBlack femme folk haven't had the privilege or the rights or.
Speaker BAnd really, in a lot of ways, the audacity to say, I'm going to take care of me first, and then, you know, the rest and the end of that kind of intro, you know, defining that.
Speaker BI really realized as a.
Speaker BAs a wave was that it wasn't just from this sociopolitical or from this academic perspective, or from this theological perspective, or even from this perspective of being in ministry.
Speaker BWhat really affirmed it was that the art.
Speaker BThe art that we were making as black women and femme folk really even began to speak to that.
Speaker BSee also Solange seat at the table really is a full womanist reclamation where she says, I'm gonna go look for my body.
Speaker BI'll be back real soon.
Speaker BAnd so there's something in that that really was kind of like if there was a mantra or a song or.
Speaker BOr a theme song for what a fourth wave of womanism is.
Speaker BIt really is black women saying, I'mma go look for my body.
Speaker BI'mma go look for me, myself, my wholeness, and I'm a.
Speaker BAnd I'm.
Speaker BAnd then I'll be back to take care of everybody else, if that's what I got to come back to do, and.
Speaker BOr that I'mma go look for my body, I'll be back like Real soon.
Speaker BAnd that being back, you know, is when I get back, hopefully y'all be good.
Speaker BOr when I get back, you know, there will be a lifting or there will be a stretching or there will be an enlarging that will happen just as a result of me going to get me and coming back.
Speaker AThis makes sense.
Speaker AOne thing, I was thinking of listening to your book.
Speaker AI was like, wow, Ebony.
Speaker AJaniece knows a lot of people.
Speaker AI feel like I need to even get your book just so I can reference all the names.
Speaker AI was like, maybe this would be my art project, like making little zines of all these folks.
Speaker ABut yeah.
Speaker ACause I'm like, wow.
Speaker ABut then it made me think your background, like, oh, yeah, she did study theology.
Speaker AI feel like you're writing or at least like you're reading.
Speaker AIt's you narrating the book.
Speaker AYou speak so easy like a friend.
Speaker AAnd so it just.
Speaker AYou forget that you have this background.
Speaker AYou just seem like you're a friend.
Speaker AThat's just like talking as if you're just talking as if we're, like, out working.
Speaker AI think of like in Forrest Gump, Bubba Gump, how he's just saying, like, there's this kind of shrimp and that kind of shrimp.
Speaker AAnd you're like, and this Alice Walker and then this theologian.
Speaker AAnd then this theologian.
Speaker AI'm like, wow.
Speaker BI think another thing that's important in that, too, though, Stephanie, is that what also, I think you could recognize about, you know, some of the people that I name dropped that really are the homies or that really are people that I have been learning with or learning in community with, is that that's your circle, too, you know, and for whoever the listener is, that's your circle, too, that you are either surrounded by and.
Speaker BOr should be surrounding yourself by people who are adding to the canon, who are thinking through the thought.
Speaker BAnd so it seems.
Speaker BIt seems really like, oh, my gosh, how does she know all these people?
Speaker BBut, you know, either next year or 10 years from now or 15 years from now, we literally will be the same saying the same thing about, you know, whoever.
Speaker BThe community of folk that you're in relationship with.
Speaker BBecause none of those.
Speaker BNone of us are on an island by ourselves learning these things, right?
Speaker BI'm learning in community with some brilliant people who, 15, 20 years ago, when we first started really digging into these conversations, we was just, you know, nobody knew who.
Speaker BYou know, Nobody knew who 15, 20 years ago.
Speaker BI won't say nobody knew who Sonya Renee Taylor was, because she was doing.
Speaker BShe was well known in another arena.
Speaker BBut then as her work began to shift and she's in relationship with all these other people, you know, or we're in relationship.
Speaker BRight.
Speaker BAs her work began to shift, of course it impacts the things that I'm thinking about.
Speaker BSo my friend who is not known on an international stage, I'm not known on an international stage, but we're growing and evolving and community together.
Speaker BSo we arrive at this place at the same time and it looks like, wait, how do they all know each other?
Speaker BMeanwhile, we.
Speaker BNobody knew us 27 minutes ago.
Speaker BAnd, and I'm done with this sermon too.
Speaker BBut the, the other example that I give of that is there's this famous picture, or I call it famous because I love it so much.
Speaker BBut it's like Toni Morrison, Pearl Cledge, Alice Walker, Jean June Jordan, all the everybody that you can think that.
Speaker BIt just feels like a flex for them all to be in the same picture at the same time.
Speaker AYeah.
Speaker BAt the time of the photo, whoever was taking the photo or whoever was walking by at the time of the photo just thought, oh, it's a whole bunch of black girls standing on stairs.
Speaker BNobody really, at the time that the photo was taken could have looked into the future and been like, oh, the mothers of our wisdom are currently all in this one place taking a picture.
Speaker BThey were just students, they were just, you know, scholars, they were just teachers.
Speaker BAnd other than the homies, nobody knew them.
Speaker BAnd then now we can't even talk without, you know, thinking about, you know, at the very least, one of them, or hopefully we not out here running off at the mouth and not thinking about, you know, Maya and Tony and Alice and you know, and, and, and it seems like it would seem like a flex to, to mention them at, you know, at that time now, but at the time, you know, it was just like, oh, that's my girlfriend Alice.
Speaker AYeah, I feel like I just knew.
Speaker AWhoever Oprah had on the show when my mom was getting me dressed for school is who I would know.
Speaker ASo it would just be like Maya Angelou and maybe Toni Morrison.
Speaker BUh huh.
Speaker AAnd like, that would be it.
Speaker AI went to school, it was in like a predominantly white neighborhood.
Speaker AAnd then I went to film school.
Speaker ASo it really wasn't until I started like pursuing my own art practice, running across like other black artists that I would know some of these other names.
Speaker AOtherwise I had no idea who they were.
Speaker BThat's in that too, though, in my opinion.
Speaker BThat's in that.
Speaker BI'm gonna go look for my body.
Speaker BI'll be Back, like, real soon.
Speaker BIt's really, like, no one.
Speaker BCause I'm from Sandusky, Ohio.
Speaker BThis predominantly white space, the curriculum was not thinking about any of the people that I just listed.
Speaker BMaybe the blackest.
Speaker BAnd not that this isn't black, but the blackest portions of the curriculum was, like, maybe a Richard Wright book, Black Boy, as far as black women are concerned.
Speaker BPhyllis Wheatley, you know.
Speaker BOkay.
Speaker BYeah.
Speaker BSo it wasn't.
Speaker BI didn't grow up with a curriculum just steeped in, you know, black girl wisdom either.
Speaker BBut when you go.
Speaker BWhen you be in the pursuit, which is the journey that.
Speaker BRight.
Speaker BLike, obviously, you're on right now.
Speaker BYou're in the pursuit of yourself.
Speaker BYou go on to look for your body.
Speaker BA part of the way that you find your body and put your members and put your pieces back together is you're like, oh, who is everybody talking about?
Speaker BAudre Lorde.
Speaker BI need to find out something about Audre Lorde.
Speaker BYou know, everybody's talking about June Jordan.
Speaker BLet me read something.
Speaker BYou know, Let me find out.
Speaker BAnd then you discover that work, and you're like, oh, this is.
Speaker BI didn't know I was missing my eyes.
Speaker BI didn't know I was missing my fingers.
Speaker BI didn't know my hands weren't completely, you know, doing what hands are capable of doing.
Speaker BAnd so, yeah, I think that that's a part of that.
Speaker BLike, what we do when we go look for our body is we go and grab that material or we go and grab the homies, or we go and, you know, community, you know, with our sisters and our.
Speaker BAnd our besties, and we figure out, you know, how to stretch and enlarge ourselves in that way.
Speaker AYeah.
Speaker ASo in.
Speaker ASo your art practice, is it something else outside of writing?
Speaker ABecause in your book, you mentioned.
Speaker AYou talk about how you didn't know that Patrisse Cullors was an artist.
Speaker AI didn't either until you said that.
Speaker BYeah.
Speaker AAnd then you had.
Speaker AAnd I might have, like, missed it because, again, I was, like, listening.
Speaker ABut your friends.
Speaker AYou were at some event, and your friends were like, we didn't even know that you were an artist.
Speaker AAnd I was wondering if you could talk about what that event was and how that came about.
Speaker BYeah, I did this.
Speaker BNow, this actually is a little bit of a flex.
Speaker BFor the record, I did this.
Speaker AI love a flex.
Speaker BYeah.
Speaker BJust slight.
Speaker BYou know, I did this program several years ago, the Public Theater in New York City, and it was.
Speaker BIt's called Bars, and it was run by Daveed Diggs, Tony and Grammy Award Winning Dovey Diggs, who is, of course, Dovey Dix, is in Hamilton, the original cast of Hamilton.
Speaker BAnd so had this program where he had, for a few years invited actors and poets and writers and performers into this kind of community theater, ish experience, and spent the summer together really writing and, you know, building up to this end project.
Speaker BAnd the end project was a lot of individual performances and then a lot of group performances.
Speaker BAnd so.
Speaker BAnd so I call it a Slight flex because I happened to apply to it.
Speaker BIt was.
Speaker BSomebody sent me the application, and the day that it was due, I was like, oh, let me turn this little application in.
Speaker BI didn't really know details and specifics what it was about to be submitted.
Speaker BMy little video did my little whatever, whatever, and got in.
Speaker BThen once I got in, I found out details and specifics.
Speaker BAnd I still.
Speaker BI hadn't necessarily been a theater kid, so I didn't know how big of a deal, how important the public Theater was.
Speaker BViola Davis, Julia Roberts, Meryl Streep, like some of the majors, you know, had performed in this particular theater or through this theater.
Speaker BAnd so I.
Speaker BSo I spent the summer working on this project.
Speaker BAnd the performance that I did, the solo performance that I did was solo, but it ended up kind of in group choreography.
Speaker BBut the solo performance that I did was this piece that I wrote called the People Could Fly, which was about the actual historical story, the rebellion at Igbo Landing, where a group of enslaved Africans overthrew their captor off the coast of St.
Speaker BSimon's island in Georgia.
Speaker BAnd then the legend is that they got over into the water, grabbed hands, and then flew back to Africa.
Speaker BAnd so I wrote this piece.
Speaker BSome of the homies came to see me perform.
Speaker BAnd when they showed up, they were just like, wait a minute.
Speaker BI know you as an educator.
Speaker BI know you as an activist.
Speaker BI know you, you know, as somebody who'd be running off at the mouth.
Speaker BI did not know that you were a writer and a performer in this way.
Speaker BAnd that is a part of my upbringing certainly is that I used to write poetry.
Speaker BI used to perform in when I was younger in community theater and things like that.
Speaker BBut it had really gotten away from me for so many years because I really got kind of accidentally caught up in the.
Speaker BThe social justice industrial complex is what I call it, you know, where all.
Speaker BAll black people, especially black women and femmes, end up accidentally being in charge of equity and inclusion for everything.
Speaker BAnd we have to teach all the things and educate on all the things.
Speaker BAnd I accidentally ended up in that.
Speaker BSo some of these people that were having this kind of like, shocked response came to know me because of that work.
Speaker BAnd even though we had known each other for years, I hadn't necessarily been posting poetry or posting any my creative writing online.
Speaker BWhat I was doing online was anti racism education.
Speaker AYeah.
Speaker BAnd so.
Speaker BYeah, so that was the surprise.
Speaker BBut so that's the addition of my artist work is that I am a poet and a playwright and a country music writer.
Speaker BI just sing the country songs to myself, though, really.
Speaker BCountry music literally just.
Speaker BIt is the Ebony Janiece show.
Speaker BBut I love country music so much.
Speaker BSo shout out to Cowboy Carter for.
Speaker BTo a lot of people how much.
Speaker BHow like storied country music is, which I think is part of the reason why I love it so much.
Speaker AYeah, I mean, I think obviously country music has been around forever, but hearing it, like, bumping down the block is like.
Speaker ABecause of Cowboy Carter, I think is amazing.
Speaker BIt's an era.
Speaker AGet my sew in the Cowboy Carter.
Speaker AI just love.
Speaker ADo you still.
Speaker AAre you.
Speaker ASo you.
Speaker AAre you, like, working on anything right now that you're excited about it?
Speaker ALike a play.
Speaker AA play or anything?
Speaker BYeah, I actually.
Speaker BI have three things that I'm working on right now.
Speaker BI have been working on a short film.
Speaker BIt's called Meet me in Harlem.
Speaker BIt's in.
Speaker BIt's basically a choose your own adventure love story, if you will.
Speaker BAnd it's.
Speaker BIt's about lifetime's worth of love for these two people.
Speaker BFall in love with each other in Harlem, and then through their love, discover that they have multiple timelines and lifetimes.
Speaker BAnd so it's kind of choose your own adventure because it's not a.
Speaker BSo there's like, at some point, like, you know, choose your own adventure.
Speaker BFor those who might not know, because I'd be forgetting sometimes that I'm of a certain age.
Speaker BChoose your own adventure is where you.
Speaker BWhen we were younger, we used to get these books where you could get to, like page 12.
Speaker BAnd it would be like, if you want Jane to go down the hill to get the ball, turn to page 37 to finish a story.
Speaker BIf you want Jane to just sit on the hill and cry, turn to the next page and see.
Speaker BAnd so there's different ways that the story ends.
Speaker BAnd so that's kind of how this short film that I've been working on for a few years is that it's like there are moments where you're like, oh, they gonna make it.
Speaker BAnd there are moments where it's like, oh, they don't make it for a couple more lifetimes.
Speaker BAnd so, yeah, so I've been working on that, and I'm actually performing for the first time ever, a comedy storytelling event.
Speaker BOh, cool.
Speaker BYeah, I wrote this comedy script a couple years ago, or I started working on a couple years ago, so I'll finally be performing it in October of this year in Brooklyn.
Speaker BBut I wrote this script, this.
Speaker BThis piece because I realized that black girls gotta be so serious.
Speaker BAnd I present very serious because of the work that I was doing publicly.
Speaker BMeanwhile, I don't know many people funnier than me.
Speaker BSo given the chance of, you know, to, like, actually choose the way that I show up, I probably would choose the clownery and the foolery and the cutting up.
Speaker BBut I.
Speaker BI didn't feel like there was a space for that, and I wanted to figure out a way to introduce that.
Speaker BAnd also, I'm deep socialized in a Southern black Christian experience, so some of the things that I want to talk about felt very inappropriate.
Speaker BSo I just kind of started working on this storytelling experience where I'm really telling a lot of true stories, embellished by comedy, of course, but telling a lot of these stories that I.
Speaker BI didn't know how I would tell it.
Speaker BAnd so the.
Speaker BThe name of the.
Speaker BThe special is called who Gonna Tell My Family this?
Speaker BBecause it's kind of like a.
Speaker BLike, y'all didn't want to know this about me, but here we are.
Speaker AOh, my gosh.
Speaker BAnd then the other piece, which is kind of an ongoing project, I had this group of.
Speaker BThis kind of.
Speaker BWhat you're talking about.
Speaker BDoes Ebony, Janiece, know everybody?
Speaker BI got together a group of the homies at the beginning of 2021, and for the next two and so years, I basically paid them every month to show up and talk to me about this idea of the people could fly.
Speaker BBecause I was so inspired by the piece that I ended up writing for bars at the Public Theater a few years ago.
Speaker BAnd I wanted to talk about it.
Speaker BI wanted to.
Speaker BI wanted to talk about it more specifically with black American women, because I feel like that's my tribe and we know something about flight that.
Speaker BOr.
Speaker BOr we.
Speaker BOr we may know something about flight, but we just don't talk about our wings.
Speaker BWe just don't talk about, you know, our ability to fly.
Speaker BWe don't talk about lost technology as, you know, descendants of Africa, as African people, but as descendants of enslaved people who were socialized out of flight.
Speaker BAnd so myself, Sonya, Renee, Taylor, Khadija and Zakiyah Abdul Mateen, Nikki Black, Thea Monier, Roya Marsh and Lord, don't let me be forgetting anybody.
Speaker BMahogany L.
Speaker BBrown.
Speaker BHow could I be forgetting?
Speaker BWe spent probably about two and a half years which culminated this January.
Speaker BI took them to Senegal, to the door, no return, and to really contemplate on a deeper level what it meant for us to fly, you know, back to our homes.
Speaker BBut the purpose of that work was because once that group culminated after those two and so years I have been working on this play now, which is a.
Speaker BIt's a full blown production, really.
Speaker BThese characters kind of fleshed out by this group of women over the last few years.
Speaker BThinking about what happened on that ship, what happened to Don on that ship, you know, on the way to, you know, St.
Speaker BSimon's island, before you overthrow your captors, how do you.
Speaker BHow do you remember that you can fly?
Speaker BHow do you remember, you know, what do you understand about God?
Speaker BWhat do you know, what happened to sisterhood?
Speaker BWhat happened to, you know, what happened to God on that ship?
Speaker BSo it's an Afro futuristic womanist retelling of what happened because the cast is solely women and girls.
Speaker BAnd so I've been working on those three thinking, imagining and dreaming about how I will bring them into the world for a few years now.
Speaker BAnd what a privilege and an honor to be able to be like, I'm not going to put this out tomorrow.
Speaker BCause guess what, it's not ready.
Speaker BBut you know, come to the time where now it feels time, like, I can do the comedy script and, you know, hopefully we'll see what happens with the other two projects in the future.
Speaker AYeah, that's really exciting.
Speaker AEspecially as you were saying in your book where you're like, okay, I need to get out of this space.
Speaker ALike out of teaching.
Speaker AI mean, we're just talking about this on your Instagram.
Speaker AYou're like, you guys need this workshop, but I'm not gonna do it again.
Speaker AI could relate to that, you know, Like, I've had friends that have started to become producers because they're like, oh, nobody's hiring us to produce, so clearly I have to become the producer.
Speaker AYou know, and like, that's not something they want to do, you know, but.
Speaker BRight, right.
Speaker AIt's like, you do it because nobody else is gonna do it.
Speaker ALike, if we need more department heads in film of color, then they become a department head of color, you know, where you're just like, I really just wanna be a worker and just do my job and go home.
Speaker ABut.
Speaker ABut you're not Allowed that opportunity.
Speaker BThere's a difference between the things that we do because we sick and tired of being sick and tired.
Speaker BYou know, we're definitely.
Speaker BAnd the things that we would really do if we could really dream, you know, if we could really be like, oh, in my highest imagination, this is what I would be doing.
Speaker BAnd the gag is we're so deeply socialized into certain behaviors and, you know, and.
Speaker BAnd being the mule of the world and taking care of everything and everybody else, we're so socialized into those ideas that even when you first start asking people, you know, what would you do in your wildest imagination and your wildest dreams?
Speaker BThere's such a disconnect.
Speaker BIt still ends up being labor.
Speaker BRight?
Speaker BWe're in this capitalist society.
Speaker BThere's still some labor to it.
Speaker BAnd so you don't.
Speaker BIt takes a couple tries to get to.
Speaker BLike, actually, even if there were no limits or boundaries, I wouldn't be doing that.
Speaker BThis is what I actually would be doing.
Speaker BAnd so I say, you know, a privilege.
Speaker BBut it doesn't.
Speaker BI really have been troubling the language of privilege, particularly as a.
Speaker BAs an artist, as a writer, as a creative that's been able to kind of ease into certain things and not have to be, like, mass producing stuff so that I can pay my bills.
Speaker BBut the reality is, it's not a privilege.
Speaker BIt is our divine right.
Speaker BIt is actually your.
Speaker BYou were born, you know, divinely equipped and with the right to do the things that the.
Speaker BWhat Dr.
Speaker BKatie Geneva Cannon calls the work your soul must have.
Speaker BBut.
Speaker BBut we don't.
Speaker BWe haven't historically been able to even access that enough to the point that when we see people access it, we're like, oh, that's privilege.
Speaker BIt is.
Speaker BGot it.
Speaker BIn the context of what we're experiencing.
Speaker BBut really, it's not privilege.
Speaker BIt's your right.
Speaker BLike, that's how it's supposed to be.
Speaker BAnd, you know, I think that it.
Speaker BIt takes a lot of that.
Speaker BThat is some of what fourth feminism wants to support us through is that we don't have to feel guilty about or, you know, give all these disclaimers before we say, oh, what I was doing today was napping.
Speaker BWhat I was doing today was creating something.
Speaker BWhat I was doing today was, you know, hanging out with the friends.
Speaker BWhat I was doing today was experiencing pleasure.
Speaker BLike, we.
Speaker BBut for.
Speaker BEspecially for black women, we always feel like we gotta give all these disclaimers about what we were doing today.
Speaker BWhat I was doing today was reading romance novels.
Speaker BRight?
Speaker BNo, that must be Nice.
Speaker BActually, it is.
Speaker BAnd I hope that, you know, I want that for you, too.
Speaker BAnd it is your divine right.
Speaker BSo what is the work that we can do together to figure out how to get, you know, get all of us to that place, you know, where, where we can.
Speaker BWhere we can be in our must be nice era.
Speaker AYes, must be nice era.
Speaker ABecause I think about in church when, you know, the pastor would say, you know, when we get to heaven, God, we want God to be like, good job.
Speaker AYou know, you don't want him to be like, listen, you were doing all this ripping and running, and I wanted you to be a country western singer, right?
Speaker BVery right.
Speaker AGoofing off, running a workshop.
Speaker BFactually, factually, factually, factually.
Speaker AHey, it's Stephanie.
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Speaker AYou know, if this also makes me think, when you hear, you know, some of the women you mentioned, I'm still, like, learning more, but I think, like, in that space of, like, pardon my, like, Valley Girl about it, but like, black, black girl, intellectual womanist world, if they speak, like, spirit, God.
Speaker AAnd because, like, if I go to church on Sunday, that's not mentioned, you think like, well, what they're speaking, that's not of God.
Speaker AAnd so that's actually, I should not actually follow what they're saying because it's not in the word, but actually it's making me think, like, you just need further learning, right?
Speaker ALike, like, it's like even how you were saying like this, like, God doesn't necessarily, like in the Bible, it's not necessarily mentioned, like, what black people were doing so good to.
Speaker AIt's not like, against God to read these works, I guess, is what I'm getting at.
Speaker BI talk about this a little bit in the book, in the chapter In Pursuit of My Ancestors because I'm acknowledging that, but, you know, growing.
Speaker BI have been preaching from the pulpit since I was 8 years old, teaching Sunday school since I was 6.
Speaker BI grew up, like I said, deeply socialized into Southern black Christianity, which is the Christianity that most of us are socialized into.
Speaker BEven if you didn't grow up in the south, the great migration, you know, took those southern black Christian ethics across the land.
Speaker BSo there definitely is, you know, that is a part of who I am and who I and who I have always been.
Speaker BAnd to be honest, who I will always be, you know, no matter what my actual identification is or as far as, like, my theology.
Speaker BRight, because my theology has drastically shifted.
Speaker BBut no matter what, I'm still Southern black Christian girl at the core.
Speaker BAnd so I have to process how.
Speaker BAnd I say socialized into that, because socialization is that you hear something and or you see something, and something is repeated to you over and over again as the standard or as the ethic or as these are morals.
Speaker BAnd so you didn't necessarily get to contribute to the rules or the morals that you, you know, were going to abide in.
Speaker BThere was a hierarchy that already exists.
Speaker BYou were born into it, and you leaned into it, and you live into it.
Speaker BAnd so some of what we consider demonic or antichrist or not of God or, you know, against Christianity or against our principles, the reality is we really just haven't fleshed out our faith for ourselves.
Speaker BAnd that's just a fact.
Speaker BAnd I'm gonna tell you that as someone, again, who had been preaching and teaching from the pulpit since I was 8, that.
Speaker BThat I was in my late 20s before I realized that I had never fully fleshed out my faith for myself.
Speaker BI knew what I believed, but I never interrogated why I believed those things.
Speaker BAnd the why I believe those things is equally as important as what I believe.
Speaker BSo what happens is, you hear somebody say, you know, talk about ancestral veneration and your automatic, you know, response to it, particularly from this Christian perspective or the southern black Christian, Christian experience, is, that's demonic.
Speaker BDon't be fooling with no ancestors.
Speaker BYou know, let the ancestors.
Speaker BWe talking about God, we talking about Jesus, we talking about the Holy Ghost, and that's it.
Speaker BIt.
Speaker BMeanwhile, the Bible sat there for more than one book, more than one chapter, and says, such and such begat such and such, begat such and such, begat such and such for a mother effing reason.
Speaker BBecause lineage matters.
Speaker BAncestry matters.
Speaker BIt matters both from a political and a spiritual perspective.
Speaker BWhy does the lineage of Jesus Christ matter?
Speaker BWhy is such and such begat such and such begat such and such begat Jesus matter?
Speaker BBecause from a legal Perspective, we need to prove that Jesus is from a certain line so that we know that the Messiah has arrived.
Speaker BThat's number one.
Speaker BThat's why we're going through all of this.
Speaker BSuch and such begat such and such because we need to prove that Jesus is the Messiah.
Speaker BNumber two, from a spiritual perspective, then it's also for a very similar reason, right?
Speaker BThis legal perspective is also part of the ways that Jewish people are acknowledging or claiming their.
Speaker BTheir inheritance because of this fleshed out, such and such begat such and such, right?
Speaker BAnd so this, from this spiritual perspective, again, we get to the Messiah has arrived because we know that according to the text, the Messiah is going to come through this bloodline for African and descended people, right?
Speaker BThere is no, particularly in the US or those who have been taken from the continent of Africa and are descendants of those that were taken from this continent.
Speaker BThere is really no way to do that, right?
Speaker BSo legally, you cannot even claim your actual legal inheritance to a certain extent, because there's no way to do it.
Speaker BYour history has been erased.
Speaker BThere's no way for most of us, we can't go past Madea.
Speaker BWe can't go past Grandma or great grandmother, maybe Great great grandmother, depending on how old you are, right?
Speaker BAnd so let's acknowledge that there's something intentional and insidious and systematic about black people who, who happen to be largely Christian on this continent, who also are the direct descendants of enslaved Africans who absolutely deserve the inheritance of wherever it is that they're from and the inheritance of this land.
Speaker BSo legally, if you believe that it is demonic to acknowledge your ancestors in an intentional way, if reparations ever became a thing, you couldn't get them.
Speaker BBecause talking about anybody past the people, a lot has been demonized so deeply that you wouldn't even be able to say, no, I can prove this.
Speaker BSo that's from a legal perspective, but from a spiritual perspective, how audacious is it to say, particularly African people, who are those of us that are the descendants of enslaved Africans.
Speaker BHow amazing is it that we have been so socialized into believing that it is demonic to seek to reverence, to acknowledge, to honor, to think with, you know, in high esteem about our ancestors when the words coming out of your mouth are not even brilliant without your ancestors?
Speaker BA large majority of the things that I say are not brilliant because Ebony Janese is brilliant.
Speaker BI've cited at least 10 black women in the past 20 minutes, right?
Speaker BSo citation then, right.
Speaker BBecomes a part of my spiritual and intellectual lineage.
Speaker BAnd of the 10 black women that I've cited, I've cited like seven non alive, you know, seven that are not alive.
Speaker BThose if I considered them my ancestors, and I certainly do.
Speaker BThose, if I consider them my ancestors.
Speaker BMy ancestors.
Speaker BI'm brilliant because my ancestors were brilliant.
Speaker BSo the idea that I could show up and even talk about something with wisdom, with credibility, with authority, without reverencing or acknowledging the elders and the ancestors is laughable.
Speaker BRight?
Speaker BSo I put those two things together.
Speaker BTo talk about the legal and the spiritual reasons and implications of thinking about something other than specifically what came directly from Genesis, Exodus and Leviticus is to suggest that there is a, an inheritance and a legal right that we have to that will not come through that text.
Speaker BBecause that text was not thinking about African people.
Speaker BThat text was.
Speaker BAnd the text was thinking about African people.
Speaker BBut the way that we've been socialized into learning about it was not thinking about African people.
Speaker BRight?
Speaker BThe way that we've been socialized into learning this text.
Speaker BAnd again, this is from a trained theologian.
Speaker BI went to seminary and I've studied from, you know, multi faith perspective.
Speaker BI understand the text as something more than just the text.
Speaker BRight.
Speaker BThe Bible is still a sacred text that I am in intimate relationship with.
Speaker BAnd as a theologian, I have the ability to read this text and trouble it and say, oh, Zan west, queer theologian Zan west says when we, when we read sacred text, in particular, we have to ask ourselves the question, who does it benefit for me to believe it this way as a black feminine?
Speaker BWho does it benefit for me to believe that it is okay for Tamar's rape to be taken over by her father's grief that he, that his son was killed?
Speaker BWho does it benefit for me to believe that the most important part of that story is not the fact that Tamar was raped.
Speaker BThe most important part of that story is the fact that a brother had to kill another brother.
Speaker BAnd now the dad is grieved about that.
Speaker BWho does it benefit?
Speaker BRight.
Speaker BSo I understand then I don't throw away the story that happened there.
Speaker BI understand that somebody made some choices when they wrote this story.
Speaker BSomebody made some choices when they preached this text or not, right?
Speaker BSomebody made some choices.
Speaker BAnd those choices, it does not benefit me in this body, in this lived experience to believe that God cared more about one of those experiences than this other experience.
Speaker BAnd if you, if you are socialized into believing your theological truth system in one way, say, who is erased more often?
Speaker BWomen.
Speaker BSurely God is always mad at the women folk, always judging, always punishing, always you Know, condemning.
Speaker BRight.
Speaker BWomen, queer people.
Speaker BRight.
Speaker BCertainly God.
Speaker BGod hates them.
Speaker BAlthough the text, the, the.
Speaker BThe text would not actually suggest that.
Speaker BRight.
Speaker BAnd so there's.
Speaker BSo you look at the least of these and you see the least of these are not represented in this text.
Speaker BText.
Speaker BThat doesn't mean we throw the text away.
Speaker BThat means that we have the divine right to say we get to ask some questions about who's left out here.
Speaker BAnd because this is the end of that sermon, because we don't have the historical records to say such and such begat such and such begat such and such begat such and such, we can look at this text and see that who begat who begat who begat who is important.
Speaker BTherefore, we shouldn't be excluding that from our reality at the same time.
Speaker AHmm.
Speaker AYeah, that's good.
Speaker AIt's like doing more research.
Speaker AAnd also put some respect on my great grandma's name.
Speaker BPeriod.
Speaker BPeriod.
Speaker BBecause there's a question in that.
Speaker BDo you ever think about potential children that will come beyond you whether you have children out of your body or not?
Speaker BDo you think about your nieces and your nephews?
Speaker BDo you think about the future for them?
Speaker BIf you, if you, in all your infinite wisdom are thinking about the future, you think your grandmother wasn't thinking about you?
Speaker BYou.
Speaker BYou think your great grandmother wasn't thinking about you?
Speaker BYou think, you think nobody in the past, even, even those that were enslaved, right.
Speaker BAnd brutal in this brutal condition, that they didn't look into the future and think, ooh, Ebony, Janiece.
Speaker BI want her to be.
Speaker BWell, I want her to be able to sit down somewhere.
Speaker BI don't want her to be talking about the same things that I'm over here talking about and struggling through.
Speaker AYeah.
Speaker BAnd so it's something very audacious about thinking that you can exclude your ancestors or that it's demonic.
Speaker BThere's something insidious about that idea.
Speaker BBut that is.
Speaker BIt's demonic for you to be thinking about them.
Speaker BMeanwhile, you ain't even wise without them.
Speaker ARight.
Speaker AIt's almost sort of offensive.
Speaker ALike, don't be calling my Grandma A devil.
Speaker B1,000 trillion percent offensive.
Speaker AYes.
Speaker AYes.
Speaker AMy goodness, that's really helpful and thank you.
Speaker BYeah.
Speaker ACause, and, you know, especially, like, when you go through, like, I wanna.
Speaker AThis is really helping me to, like, see, like, oh, yeah, read more, study more, be in more conversation.
Speaker ABecause the girls I kick it with, we not talking about this.
Speaker AWait till I get to dinner tonight.
Speaker AWait till I get to dinner tonight.
Speaker AWhat is we talking about?
Speaker AYou know, something else I want to ask you, as you write about, like, ease and play and softness, what does that look like in Practical?
Speaker ASo you wake up in the morning, your alarm goes off, and then what do we do?
Speaker BNumber one, I don't wake up with an alarm.
Speaker BLet's start there.
Speaker BAnd I just want to say that I have lived my life to get to the point where I don't have to wake up with an alarm.
Speaker BBecause the way that my brain.
Speaker BI'll talk about softness in a second, and so I'll talk about a regulating nervous system, but the way that my brain functions is that if I'm startled out of my sleep, it's not gonna be a great day.
Speaker BAnd I don't think that that is.
Speaker BThat's just the Ebony, Janiece Show.
Speaker BI think that we just get used to it.
Speaker BGet used to waking up like this.
Speaker BAnd then, you know what happens in the day as a result of this?
Speaker BAnd this isn't.
Speaker BThis actually isn't new for me.
Speaker BWhen I was a little girl, I've been putting.
Speaker BI've been putting a lot of pieces together for myself about, like, girl, how did you get this way?
Speaker BBut when I was a little girl, when I was a teenager, my dad used to come wake me up because that was my preference.
Speaker BBecause when my mom woke me up, my mom would just yell up the stairs, abby, wake up.
Speaker ALike, yeah.
Speaker BBut my dad.
Speaker BWhich is so funny because my dad can be so hard sometimes.
Speaker BMy dad never shouted, woke me up ever.
Speaker BNever, ever.
Speaker BMy dad would come upstairs and, like, kind of, like, shake my shoulder a little bit and wake me up.
Speaker BAnd if I gotta be awakened by anybody but God, wake me up like that.
Speaker BLet me ease into the wake up.
Speaker BDo not jumpstart my day.
Speaker BAnd so then, you know, of course, I have had, you know, a few jobs in my early 20s before I really dove into entrepreneurship in the way that I exist in it now.
Speaker BBut a few jobs in my early 20s where I did have to wake up really early with an alarm, and.
Speaker BAnd just the sound of it, I had to wake up with an alarm.
Speaker BIt's just traumatizing.
Speaker BLike, it's like, yeah, I woke up alarmed.
Speaker BAnd so.
Speaker BSo I think that that's important to think about, you know, how we wake up.
Speaker BI don't wanna say that I had a full intellectual thought process about it, but even then, my desire was, I don't wanna live a life where I gotta wake up like this.
Speaker BThis.
Speaker BYou know, I.
Speaker BI recognize how this makes my body feel, and it doesn't feel Good.
Speaker BAnd, you know, and I could.
Speaker BAnd you notice the difference because on the days where you don't have to set an alarm, it's a completely different kind of morning, you know, and so that became a dream for me, which, which seems like a, like a silly thing to say, but it's a really real thing that, you know, in my, in my highest imagination for myself, I live my life in such a way that I wake up and then I ease into my day because I don't want to wake up with an alarm or alarmed.
Speaker BAnd so I begun to create a life where that was possible for me.
Speaker BNow, for the record, I wake up really early anyway, so there's that.
Speaker BBut I wake up because I woke up, not because somebody punched me in the head and said get up, you know, and, and so that's kind of where some of that messaging comes from and some of that language of ease is really like, oh, if I could ease into my day, what other ways do I get to practice?
Speaker BEase in other spaces?
Speaker BIt's not just, I don't wanna wake up really harsh with an alarm.
Speaker BI also don't wanna start my day with, you know, terrible text message news or terrible email news.
Speaker BRight.
Speaker BAnd so you just start to look throughout the rest of your day and see where are the places where the most high stress or where you' in your body or the least in your body and.
Speaker BOr where you're feeling the most anxiety or where you have a knot in your stomach or where you're feeling overwhelmed.
Speaker BAnd if you could kind of look at those parts of your day and figure out what is the strategy that I could implement for myself, for my life, that I could avoid this high kind of kick to my gut, kick to my nervous system.
Speaker BAnd, and again, there's a way in which we could talk about privilege when it comes to that, but I want to really, at the very least offer that it actually is your divine right to be in a regulating nervous system, that it does not have to be normal, that your body should constantly be in a state of alarm and unrest.
Speaker BAnd so looking at those places in your life where it's like, okay, instead of checking my email or my text messages as soon as I wake up and there's, and there's not, there's not privilege in that, that's just kind of wisdom.
Speaker BGo to the bathroom and brush your teeth first.
Speaker BAt first, right?
Speaker AYeah.
Speaker BGo get some water, go take a shower, be with yourself before you do those things.
Speaker BTo, to think of that as like, oh, that's a Privilege.
Speaker BI have to, I have to jump out the bed and check my emails, check my phone.
Speaker BWho, what kind of salary are you making that as soon as you wake up, you gotta go check your email now?
Speaker BQuit that job.
Speaker BYeah, yeah, right.
Speaker BSo thinking of it that way, instead of, instead of leaning into like, oh, people who don't have to check their text messages or their emails as soon as they wake up have the privilege of doing that and, and start to think about it from this perspective of like, who, who really is a.
Speaker BI say this and I'm done with the sermon.
Speaker BI'm a Baptist preacher by heart, so I always.
Speaker AI love, I love how you conclude everything as sermons.
Speaker BMy mom used to say to me, because I sleep with, with the do not disturb on.
Speaker BAnd my mom used to be like, what if there emergency, Call the police, please, please, if an emergency is happening for you, dial, call the rescue squad.
Speaker BYou know, there, there has to be.
Speaker BEspecially before we lived in the same place and we've only lived in the same place in my adult life for the past few years.
Speaker BSo the years before now, where she would be like, what if, what if there's an emergency nobody can get you call the daughter that's around the corner.
Speaker BCorner, yeah.
Speaker BDon't call me in Harlem and you're in North Carolina.
Speaker BDoesn't make sense.
Speaker BYou know, like there has to be.
Speaker BYou have.
Speaker BI am, I don't.
Speaker BI cannot be at the top of the list of the people that you call in the event of an emergency because I'mma be sleep now.
Speaker BOf course, even with do not disturb, there's ways to get through this.
Speaker BOf course.
Speaker AYeah.
Speaker BThere is a real emergency.
Speaker BI might hear the phone vibration.
Speaker AYeah.
Speaker BYou know, but otherwise, you know, so this idea, like again, it's more of our socialization.
Speaker BWe really have been, you know, trained, you know, for lack of better words, socialized into this idea that we always have to be accessible.
Speaker BAnd that, and that goes back to Solange saying, I'm gonna go look for my body and going to look for my body.
Speaker BA part of getting my body back is getting my nights back, getting my sleep back, getting my morning back, getting my lunchtime back.
Speaker BMy lunchtime.
Speaker BYou know, if I have to go to a place to work my lunchtime.
Speaker BThe company that you work for has a legal obligation to provide you with a break.
Speaker BTake the actual break.
Speaker BIt is not a privilege to take the break.
Speaker BIt is your legal right to have the break.
Speaker BRight.
Speaker BAnd so thinking of those things really helped me to begin to really construct and co create what ease will look like for me.
Speaker BAnd then once you can really start to lean into the ease, then you can really start to think more deeply about, okay, I'm.
Speaker BI've eased into my day, what will bring me pleasure.
Speaker BAnd.
Speaker BAnd that isn't not a privileged thing either.
Speaker BI'm.
Speaker BI'm not a coffee drinker.
Speaker BI'm not a coffee snob like some people.
Speaker BI do drink coffee, but I'm not, not a coffee snob like some people.
Speaker BSo I get the, like, $4 instant coffee.
Speaker BAnd I.
Speaker BIf I put any money into my coffee routine, it is my creamer.
Speaker BI'll buy a really good, you know, oat creamer.
Speaker BCome on, now.
Speaker BSo I make my little, little coffee in the morning.
Speaker BThat's my little morning routine.
Speaker BAnd this is before I let y'all stress me out.
Speaker BLike, yeah, let me.
Speaker BLet me wake up, go brush my teeth, go do the thing, go, da, da, da, da, da.
Speaker BGo downstairs, do my little coffee routine.
Speaker BAnd I.
Speaker BAnd more than it is the coffee, it's really the ritual of it I really enjoy.
Speaker BLike, now I'm waiting.
Speaker BI'm now waiting for the kettle to, you know, start whistling.
Speaker BAnd while I'm doing that, I go read my little, you know, ancestor said book, my little, you know, daily word, whatever, whatever.
Speaker BAnd so that brings me pleasure.
Speaker BAnd so I can think more about, you know, I've gotten to the ease.
Speaker BI'm thinking now more about pleasure, how to fill those places that used to be more high stress.
Speaker BI could fill those now with, like, this is what I actually want to be doing in this moment, or what I actually want to be experiencing in this moment.
Speaker BAnd softness is like this whole other conversation, I think, even though it's inside of that too, right?
Speaker BIf I'm talking about a regulating nervous system when I talk about softness, particularly in the book, you know.
Speaker BBut as I, you know, kind of start to introduce the language of softness several years ago in this way, I've never been talking about softness as luxury or as, like, an aesthetic ever.
Speaker BNever, ever.
Speaker BI've always been talking about softness as I am seated in my body.
Speaker BAnd, you know, the difference between your seat and when you are, are up in right, like.
Speaker BAnd a lot of us live, like, right here at the, like, clenched fist and the tightened chest and, you know, belly.
Speaker BAnd I discovered a softer version of myself, of fully, like, just sit back.
Speaker BIf you're, you know, listening to this, just sit back in your seat, fully relax your shoulders, release, you know, the breath that might be sitting in your chest, chest, release you know, fill into the breath in your belly and feel what it feels like to be fully seated, relaxed into your seat.
Speaker BNow imagine that you could live your life from that seat or that you could pursue that seat in every single situation.
Speaker BThat is what I've always been talking about when I talk about softness, when I talk about pursuing softness, pursuing this easeful.
Speaker BEven in the example that I give is Toni Morrison.
Speaker BThat doesn't mean that we cannot have hard conversations because we've seen too many Toni Morrison interviews where she talking about hard stuff fully seated, meaning you saying something she told a woman.
Speaker BIn fact, in this particular interview, you can't even imagine how incredibly racist what you just said to me is.
Speaker AYes, I remember.
Speaker BThat person said that to a white woman woman, fully seated in herself.
Speaker BWhich is part of the reason why I call it the seat of Toni fully seated in herself, saying hard things, fully seated.
Speaker BWhat is her.
Speaker BWhat does your body feel like at the end of a week, at the end of a month, at the end of a year?
Speaker BIf you have practiced, even.
Speaker BEven if you just practicing it, even if you haven't mastered it?
Speaker BAnd I don't think any of us will because we live in a society where there's people are being genocided as we speak.
Speaker BSo of course your body, you know, is responding to the things going on around you, right?
Speaker BBut if you just began to practice it and you just sat in your seat one out of the five times you had to turn up today, and you practice that until that turns into two times, until that turns into four times, get to the end of the year and go back to the doctor and ask the doctor to reevaluate your blood pressure.
Speaker BReevaluate, right.
Speaker BSo I'm suggesting that it isn't just.
Speaker BJust this spiritual woo woo idea of the seat of yourself or fully seated in yourself.
Speaker BI'm suggesting that there is something that happens to your whole spirit, soul and body when you can sit down in yourself on a daily basis.
Speaker BAnd there's something healing, something regenerative, something that is revelatory in the seat that you can't.
Speaker BThat we haven't been able to get because we've been sitting up here ready to go.
Speaker BYeah, okay, I got my fist up.
Speaker BWe ready to go.
Speaker ARight?
Speaker AYou know what?
Speaker AThis is sort of terrible, but it sort of reminds me of this like seated, walking, seated, being soft is like gangsters.
Speaker ALike I was watching this movie with Pablo Escobar.
Speaker AHe's a terrible person, but he just moved through just like, what did they say?
Speaker AOkay, I'm gonna go deal with them.
Speaker AAnd he just walks.
Speaker AAnd he seems like very calm now.
Speaker AClearly we don't know his blood pressure or what, like internally he was going through.
Speaker ABut the way, at least in the movies, how he moved through was just so at peace, you know, like description.
Speaker BI think that's a brilliant connection because when you think about who you could be as a leader or as an entrepreneur or as a creator, if you could sit down and.
Speaker BAnd because being in your seat means that you're less reactionary and you're more like, here's the chaotic thing that's happening.
Speaker BYou in your seat and you're like, hmm, this is what's next.
Speaker BThis, this makes me think about Frank Lucas.
Speaker AWe could say Frank Lucas for a black woman.
Speaker BYes.
Speaker BYeah.
Speaker BI mean, also, maybe not the best person.
Speaker AYeah, yeah.
Speaker BEthically, but yeah.
Speaker ARight.
Speaker BMy aunt Phyllis used to be a high ranking official.
Speaker BShe worked for National Guard Equal Opportunities Bureau.
Speaker BAnd I saw, I went to, I was, I remember this like it was yesterday.
Speaker BI was like 23 years old.
Speaker BI went to D.C.
Speaker Bwith her for this convention.
Speaker BAnd we're in the hotel and she's on the phone with a lot of like five star generals, like high, high, high ranking.
Speaker BShe the only woman, the only black woman on this.
Speaker BOnly woman, period.
Speaker BBut the, you know, particularly that she's a black woman on this call with all these generals, like high ranking military officials, and they're asking questions, she's answering these questions and somebody asked this question and she responds to them and she says, I know he's high ranking because she says his title when she, you know, lieutenant, lieutenant, colonel, something, something, whatever, whatever.
Speaker BShe says, his title, some big title.
Speaker BAnd he asked her the question and says, let me think about that.
Speaker BAnd I'm in my early 20s and at the time I still believed that the way to prove that you were a good, you know, best for this job or, you know, that you were smart, is that you, you're witty, you have the answer.
Speaker BBut to see this black woman in action say, let me think about that.
Speaker BChange the trajectory of my life.
Speaker BBecause here's the thing that, that talks me.
Speaker BShe did not get a whooping with a belt.
Speaker BShe didn't get fired, she didn't get in trouble.
Speaker BThere's something in fact that I think they respected even more about her as a result of her saying, I'm not about to sit here and lie to you off the top of my head.
Speaker BI don't know.
Speaker BLet me think about that.
Speaker BThere's something so profound in so the Example that you gave about Pablo Escobar with Frank Lucas is like, you know, just chilling.
Speaker BWhat multitudes of, you know, issues do you get to solve in your mind when you're fully seated versus trying to come up with the first possible answer?
Speaker BAnd how do we then apply that to all these other areas of our life where it's like, if I could sit down for a minute, I could figure this thing out.
Speaker BSo let's take that, sit down for a minute and apply it to our actual life.
Speaker BIf I could stay sitting down.
Speaker ADown.
Speaker BGame changer.
Speaker BOverall, whole spirit, soul, and body gets a.
Speaker BGets to have a different experience in this world.
Speaker BIf I could just stay seated.
Speaker AThat's.
Speaker AThat's really good.
Speaker AAnd I even remember.
Speaker AI remember when I was, you know, learning, like, photography, and people would ask me, oh, can you do photography for me?
Speaker AAfter I get all the information about, like, the who, what, where?
Speaker AI'm like, okay, this sounds great.
Speaker AI will call you back.
Speaker AYou know, like, so that way you can, like, really think about, like, a price, you know, just, like, take your time instead of being like, it's 600.
Speaker BOh.
Speaker AAnd then, like, you think back, like, why'd I say that?
Speaker ALike, it's really 800.
Speaker A900.
Speaker AYeah, yeah, yeah.
Speaker ASo I really.
Speaker AYeah, I really appreciate that.
Speaker AThat's.
Speaker AThat's really good.
Speaker AYeah.
Speaker AThank you so much.
Speaker ALike this little quick round house questions.
Speaker AOkay.
Speaker ASo did you have an imaginary friend growing up?
Speaker BOh, yes.
Speaker BI had an imaginary friend.
Speaker BMy imaginary friend had an imaginary friend, and I had imaginary.
Speaker BI still remember their names.
Speaker BTheresa, Vanessa.
Speaker BMy imaginary pet name was Dog.
Speaker BMy imaginary cat's name was Cat.
Speaker BMy imaginary bird's name was Birdie, and my imaginary giraffe's name was Giraffe.
Speaker BNot very creative, but very creative at the same time.
Speaker AI love that you have a favorite holiday food.
Speaker BThe first thing that just came to my mind is dressing.
Speaker AOkay.
Speaker AAnd then do you have a favorite Christmas carol?
Speaker BI don't.
Speaker BWell, maybe I do.
Speaker BWhat is that?
Speaker AYes.
Speaker AHark all the bells.
Speaker BCall the bells.
Speaker AYeah, yeah, yeah.
Speaker BThere's something about that song.
Speaker BIt's just like, merry, merry, merry, merry Christmas.
Speaker AYes, that's a good one.
Speaker AI've been, like, watching.
Speaker AI love, like, Hallmark films, and then this is a controversial one, but do you have your own Netflix account or do you use someone else's?
Speaker BI don't watch anything at all whatsoever, period.
Speaker BReally?
Speaker AWow.
Speaker AOh, my God.
Speaker AI cannot wait to see your films.
Speaker BYeah, I don't watch anything.
Speaker BIt's been a couple years since I really been like watching anything.
Speaker BI'm romance novel girl and the storyline is so much Y.
Speaker BThat didn't capture my attention as much anymore.
Speaker AAnd then as a hip hop womanist.
Speaker ACan you freestyle?
Speaker AGot bars?
Speaker BI do.
Speaker BI will not.
Speaker AOkay, and then have you ever won a contest?
Speaker BI can't think.
Speaker BI'm sure I have.
Speaker BBut the first thing that I thought with that question is I was the first person to get out in sixth grade for the spelling bee, so.
Speaker BSo I was put out for the Word magazine.
Speaker BI'm very embarrassed about that.
Speaker BBut that's the first thing that came to my mind.
Speaker AUgh.
Speaker ADon't be embarrassed.
Speaker AShe wouldn't just, you know, enjoyed your was just was seated.
Speaker ADo you have a favorite Disney character?
Speaker BI don't think that I do.
Speaker BOf course.
Speaker BPrincess Tiana comes to my mind.
Speaker AYes.
Speaker BMama Odie of course comes to my mind because I'm a little bit of Mama Odie sometimes, so.
Speaker BSo I'll go with Teyana and Mama Odie.
Speaker AAnd the last thing, do you have any hot takes through your womanist lens of the housewives?
Speaker ALike Atlanta Housewives?
Speaker AEverybody needs anything about them.
Speaker BYeah, all of them need to read.
Speaker BAll the black girls are activists.
Speaker AYes.
Speaker BWell, number one, I do wanna affirm that there's a chapter called In Pursuit of Loudness.
Speaker BSo I don't wanna judge the way that they show up because I think that there's something very valid about it.
Speaker BAnd also I think In Pursuit of Soft would be very helpful for them.
Speaker BNot from an aesthetic perspective, but from a.
Speaker BLike, they be.
Speaker BThey never sitting down, they always be climbing out they seat.
Speaker BSo.
Speaker AMan, that's real.
Speaker AYou're right.
Speaker AThat's so true.
Speaker BWho would you be?
Speaker BWho would you be if you did not respond on TV out of your seat every single episode?
Speaker BWho would you be?
Speaker BAnd what's possible?
Speaker BThere.
Speaker AThere's a young lady, her Instagram handle is QueensofProductions.
Speaker AShe applied for your archivist position.
Speaker BOkay.
Speaker AShe's a producer.
Speaker ALike a film producer.
Speaker AAnd one, I think that'd be cool just for your films.
Speaker ABut then two, I almost wanna ask her if we can do like a.
Speaker AIt'd be like a fun, like six week Ayanla dream with me workshop with just Kenya Moore.
Speaker AWith Portia Williams.
Speaker AI don't know.
Speaker BJust cooling those clips and thinking about what would you say?
Speaker AOh, yeah, people.
Speaker BInstead of.
Speaker BInstead of what Ayanla would say.
Speaker BCause Ayanla might cuss them out.
Speaker BHonestly.
Speaker AYeah, yeah.
Speaker BYou know, what would I say to Kenya in this situation?
Speaker BWhat would I say to Portia in this sit.
Speaker BWell, what I say to Nini in this situation, like, I think that could be really, really dope.
Speaker AYeah, I think.
Speaker AI think that I was saying that Ayanla, because you had, like.
Speaker AIt's like a way to work with you.
Speaker ALike, you know, depending on your vibe.
Speaker ALike, you would meet them in your home.
Speaker ASo that's where I got, like, the one on one thing.
Speaker ABut I don't know, just the thought.
Speaker AI was just wondering as I was reading, like, because I love the housewives.
Speaker BPlease say this to me in an email soon, because I want to think, okay, yes, that might look like.
Speaker AI think I would.
Speaker AI would just love it.
Speaker AAnd I think just, like, where, you know, you come from, like, I'm coming from housewives and, like, drug dealers as my references.
Speaker AYeah, I know.
Speaker AIt's like, it takes all kinds, right?
Speaker ALike, but yeah, I just would be.
Speaker AI feel like I would also learn a lot from that.
Speaker ASo, yeah, I'll send you an email about it and, like, ask.
Speaker BPlease, please, please do.
Speaker BI want to think about it.
Speaker AThis has been another episode of Nosy af.
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